= Jolin's Blog .

Saturday, June 29, 2013

~ Imagine this is reality ~

what am i talking about?!
this is already reality in itself!
but this reality you're in is different from the ones others see you in.

the past month has been the biggest surprise.
the changes i've experienced and the changes ppl see in me,
it scares me, yet again, it surprises all of us.

it's amazing how the way we views the world can be so different,
sometimes even the opposite!
just when you begin to accept the fact that you're not who you think you are,
ppl begin to see that 'thing' in you.
truth is, while you're beginning to realise the difference,
i, myself, am also surprise and getting used to these.

from assignment and performances to bookings and trips,
it's been a crazy period.
from stressing to relaxing, changing in just a flash.
it's difficult to not realise that time has just passed in a flash as well.
from slowwwwww to fast,
my time stopped dragging the moment all the assignment went into the box,
and it started to run on a high speed till now.
time is beginning to slow down now that i've more time in my hands.

Drama-rama.
our performance was not the best, but it was the most awesome teamwork :)
though it was just a short performance,
i cld really sense our chemistry.
if life is a stage, then i must say, the stage is our reality.
the breaths you take behind the curtains, the heart beats you feel before you head out to the stage.
these are the best moments.
aside from the 'you' that you release on stage.
it's never playing someone else,
it's always playing this other 'you' that you've perhaps not known to have exist till now.
Sydneyyyyy mamamiaaaaaa~
it was like our annual trip tgth, being with the girls for over 24hours has always been memorable.
desserts to drinks, sightseeing to shopping.
sharing one umbrella may not be the best idea when you're caught in a heavy rain,
but even if it's being half dry, it's all worth the sharing :)
i'm always learning so much from them, from the way they look after each other
to the way they disagree to agree. it's interesting.

Perthhhhhh, bring the artsy fartsy out of meeee~
to be wrapped ard in the cold, to be surprised by little surprises,
to just enjoy being ard and beside.
it isn't always that great to be surprised, cos' you're only included at the end.
but when you're part of the surprise, you're included in the process,
and the best thing is, you're the one who brings out the smile of another.
sometimes, it's not about looking at the map and finding a destination to go,
even just by driving ard aimlessly with someone special,
it may also bring surprises to you.

Brisbanian meeeee~
without anyway means of communication,
i was late and anxious but i knew you knew i'd come for you.
i miss my lil bro alrdy!
no matter how annoying or ignorant he is,
i had fun nagging, teaching, bossing him ard :P
that morning he told me that i was like an annoying alarm clock,
and i rmbed saying this to my mom before.
it made me laugh so much.
i'll learn to let go even more, but right now, i just wanna cling onto you even more,
cos' you'll always be my lil' bro :P

I've a new man in my life,
another man to tolerate my craziness,
another man to protect my smile,
another man to give me big hugs.
To the new man in my life,
you're no longer twelve!
time to step up on your brotherly love! :P
miss you, my dear genie~

P.S. a clean empty room may not even be as cozy as a messy noisy room.

Jolin signing off............................................................

10:12 PM