= Jolin's Blog .

Wednesday, October 03, 2012

~ Lost in thoughts ~

getting really into those thoughts,
so much so that i'm enjoying those thoughts.
don't get those thoughts messed up with daydreams.
they're thoughts from a sleepyhead,
and sparked off by hundreds of lovelies.
perhaps you'd be the next i'd 'throw up' on.

so i did get very comfy with my break,
and i mean, really really comfy.
i had too hypnotise myself several times to get some work done.
it was indeed a really good break,
far from shits... well, not exactly all~

it was a promise for the first few months,
then the promise was no longer 'valid'
but it took me ages to actually 'break' the promise.
hahaha. finally, the night came, and i 'broke' a no longer 'valid' promise.
it's not something naughty or whatsoever~ (mind you)
it was fun even if it was just going in circles.
just when the ppl around you doubt your ability,
and only one person daring enough to take up the challenge,
you just gotta and have to do it, and prove your abilities.
a one-off that made the urge come back for more~
hahaha...

after one night, and one really memorable sentence,
i just needed to get that out of my head.
it wasn't bad, neither was it a really good thing.
sometimes, i just space out and 'time traveled' back to then.
it was minutes after that i actually 'heard' it,
and i'm not sure if that was a surprise or a shock
or rather a nonchalant expression on my face.

head up to mount cootha and the lights totally blew me away.
the cool breeze made me jump and run around,
and i was simply swept off my feet.
i guess that was what i needed, a huge sky with lots of stars,
and a huge empty space to let loose.
if there was a blanket, i'd sit on the grass and cuddle under the stars.
and i do realise now, that a hot coffee or chai is essential during such times.

all the funny, weird, crazy thoughts come in the night,
and there's so many posts that wld be awesome to post up,
yet again, they end up in my drafts box just cos' i put too much passion in writing them up,
and i get so shy sharing those explicit stuffs~ (yea, you heard me alright!)

she who stands at the side, sees and learns.
even when the questions get thrown into her face,
she stands still with a blank.
times when you don't want to say 'no' and just go with the flow,
just cos' some smartass came up with the 'YOLO' phrase.
despite all the shits, she stands up and widen her eyes just like an owl.
even if nothing actually went in, she nods like a puppet and says 'yea'
all of a sudden drawing a straight line became drawing circles,
and all those rants had to be swallowed in,
just so one can look perfectly normal for a minute. yolo.

i'm not robot, no iron man, no metal vehicle.
it's not made a hard metal,
so it says.
a sincere one is received, and cannot be ignored.
the sincere could even make a metal piece melt a lil,
what more a non-metal piece.

to have two persons to make the same response to diff ppl is such an interesting thing.
it reminds me of the red-apple-green-apple post i wrote long ago.
anyway, a sour apple had quite a sour-sweet day.
to actually let things happen to yourself and burst out laughing at yourself
is the most awesome event ever.
i mean, sometimes just by laughing at some ridiculous things you've done
actually makes a really good laugh.
i really do admire ppl who can laugh at themselves and not only at others.
hahahahhahaaa it takes quite a bit of courage to put yourself into such a spot.

wait for me.
if i come back that means you've waited for me.

P.S. fallintoapoolofbeancurd-yolo!

Jolin signing off.........................................................

4:56 AM