= Jolin's Blog .

Tuesday, May 03, 2011

~ Ponder-ing ~

days and days and days,
became a week and over.

Finally!!! i've found time to do my nails.
and apparently, i've garnered quite many positive responses :)
it may not have been perfect to the max,
but after the hard work of actually doing it,
painting it, cleaning up the mess... it's rather worth it.

gave my hair another treat!!
had lots of chats and fun, pictures and blah~~
i believe my hair's still shining :)

headed out with the babes to K.
in fact, i've not been there ever since i-dont-know-when...
it was a day of excitement, which E and i were eager to get the ball rolling~
there is still a sense of guilt.. but thinking abt all the fun... :)
how can we afford to let such an opportunity slip by?

E and i started way before the day - the night before.
everything became impromptu,
we laughed until tears were about to roll down our cheeks,
and everything went smoothly.
the two little pranksters hid in a cubicle, waiting for the prey to approach them voluntarily.

the result was tears and laughter.
so the two little pranksters kept trying to 'make peace' with the preys again...
isn't it ironic?
the pranksters' goal was to get tears, but when they see tears,
they were trying their best to make smiles instead.
with all the laughter and cries, can these be one memorable event among us?
perhaps... near the last event?

sakae buffet :P
gorged down plates and plates of sushis
we ordered over 26 different kinds of dishes, minus the quantity of each...
there were leftovers and we played, 'i nvr...' to get rid of the dishes,
and i totally ate as though there were no tomorrow...
from a seat, to two tables...
from eating, to games, to arm wrestling, to shoes SHOES SHOESSSSSS
shopped and chat, and shop and chat~~~

met up with taitais~
just when i saw a looooong queue,
i was so thankful to hear that they've alrdy gotten a seat.
ice cream buffet was marvelous!!
had a few rounds of ice creams, cakes, waffles, fondue~~
and i was SWEET to the max!!
it felt like sweet paradise, and kinda over when it reached the 3rd.

loved the real life jokes at the table :)
muahahhhahhahaaa
shopped ard and headed to look for others.
met new faces and we shopped as though time had stayed still.
i thought my watch was spoiled when i saw the time...
and we checked our phones and other's watches with disbelief.

met SA and the dancers for bbq
i love the drinks sooo much so, that i cldn't stop at just one sip.
i even tried making one on my own :) teehee~
taboo was fun but winning was noooo fun :S
chats and laughs as usual :P
ahhhh all these gatherings make me so high!!

headed out for some relaxation :)
and i really need to stop those scares...
it really scares me... bleah.
it was so comforting, with the music and all, i nearly fell aslp.
but still... it's difficult.

grocery shopping was fab fab fab!!
grabbed my biscuits and soya~!!
so the fridge is getting over-load bcos of the shopping...
hmmmmmmm... shd we consider getting another one? hahaha...

watching someone dear wallow in tears got me thinking,
how can one feel so hurt like this?
then again, when i cry, does everyone also feel at a loss?
in split secs, i wasn't trying to grasp the full situation we're at,
rather i was trying to turn it ard, to make a smile.
i realise it doesn't matter what had happened, or who was the culprit,
rather, it was what we cld do to make that smile that matters more.
perhaps being a listening ear to someone cld mean a lot,
but how abt being a distract-er for a while?

approached a person from the past,
after actually hiding for quite awhile...
how can there be a person who actually put 'hurt' aside for awhile.
in fact, i had forgotten abt everything until mid-convo...
it came into my mind, 'shdn't i be...? i shdn't have...'
trying my best to comfort me, 'ahhh it's not the person but something else...'
'it's just forgiving, you're growing up!'
but... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
perhaps it's something He wants me to let go, so i can move on :)

in the night, tug yourself under the covers and close your eyes.
after minutes... near to an hour,
you open your eyes and find yourself outcasted from dreamland...
hmmm... 'is there a long queue to the destination, that's why?'
so you close your eyes thinking, 'i won't be left out, it'll be my turn soon.'
you keep your eyes close, tightly shut...
hours passed, and after tossing and turning, you open your eyes widely,
stares at the clock nearby and screams in your head,
"GOSH?! is it my turn yet?! why am i still awake!?"
you adjust the pillow, make the bed again, and jumps back to bed.
pulls the covers up (once again.), and eyes shut even tighter.
you repeat everything over and over again
as if time had stayed still for you to do the same thing repeatedly,
as if you had NG-ed every time, and the director just wants you to perfect that same shot.
Then, for the last time, you open your eyes because some bright light was shining at you.
you realise the sun had rise, and it's yet another day.
'was my sleep all just a dream? cos' i still feel tired as though i've not had my dream.'

P.S. tired but don't stop the party~~ (more pics next time :P)

jolin signing off...............................................................

9:42 AM