= Jolin's Blog .

Sunday, June 06, 2010

~ You're different ~

different in the way you laugh,

different in the way you cry,

different in the way you feel.

it's been a loooong weekend.

yet i don't feel as though i've had the rest of a lifetime.

am i greedy? or is it because i really didn't rest enough?

being down isn't really me.

but whenever i crash, i take quite a long time to be me again.

perhaps i used up all my laughs

perhaps i just used up all my tears for 2010.

and this will be all for 2010.

went to jia's 20th party.

i ate so many ikan billis.

and i got to meet up with quite a few loved ones.

i wished it all happened the right time though...

cos' that morning...

i woke up really early, headed to mandai.

for the first time, i saw how shattered bones looked like.

a person who's bigger, taller than me has reduced to white, bits and pieces.

i held one up, and finally called out to him.

i've not touched alcohol for really looong.

esp. now that cal's not in town :S

and honestly, i've not been eating much...

cos' i either play with the food until it's too ruined to eat,

or i just eat until everyone's done with their meals.

but truthfully, that night, and sometimes with them,

i binged.

as long as i cld evade ques, talks, smiles.

it's gonna be better in time to come

cos' i'm not that weak, am i?

traveling is gooooood!

the other day,

we talked abt how terra cotta was like in the past.

quiet he sits, talkative he shares of experiences,

thoughtful he was when we stayed tgth,

funny he was when he took his shoes and ran out of the burning house...

i left behind dancing for awhile.

and they reminded the dancing me.

but i know it's just temporary.

don't worry.

P.S. swensens :)

jolin signing off...........................................................................

8:43 AM