= Jolin's Blog .

Friday, June 04, 2010

~ Terra cotta on the run ~

terra cotta, terra cotta.

swam and flew far far away.

where's the destination?

it's too much to absorb.

too many changes.

but one terra cotta.

i thought i cld balance work, slp, and family.

they told me, i need slp, i need rest.

some point during the whole event,

i forgo rest, i forgo myself...

he told me i shd be there with them.

that was when i realise,

how much i wanted to split into two,

to be at both places at the same time.

perhaps i've overestimated myself...

i thought i was some superwoman

with a CGH sticker on my right arm.

i seem to have over-exhaust myself.

rushing from places to places,

forcing out a smile at times,

wanting to accomplish everything on my own.

there's a difference between hardening from the outside and the inside.

from the outside, it means shielding from everything.

form the inside means strengthening yourself,

brave enough to go through it all.

i tried both.

i was so cold.

i sent you to the airport today.

and when you went into the gates,

my heart ached so bad.

you went in so slowly, i thought about almost everything.

when the gates closed,

i stayed to stare and then turned bravely and left.

i don't know where you're heading.

but i know the apple tree will be the first stop.

i spent 8 rounds to perspire it out.

i used up my tears as well.

it's amazing how Lord sent his angels tonight. thanks you all.

P.S. Genie, you did so well these few days. i'm so proud of you. :)

i'm jealous.

jolin signing off......................................................................

8:06 AM